I Hate This Town

I’m ALWAYS your second fucking choice.

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I doubt that this will get read by the person i want it to, but i miss you. I want you. I care for you. I know sometimes i flip out over dumb shit and and take my anger out on you. I just want you to know that I do love you. Your my world and I need to show you that. I’m a fuck up and I don’t know why I keep fucking up everything in my life. I want you in my future and in my life right now. No one will ever love me the way you do and no one will ever love you the way I do. I will never stop loving you. Your the one for me. We are made for each other. Shit. Yeah I’m a guy and for some reason people like to think that guys don’t get butterflies but everytime i see your face I do. Everytime I touch your lips I do. Everytime I stare in to your beautiful eyes I do. Everytime I hear your voice I do. I don’t know if i give you the same effect but thats what you do for me. The bad thing about me saying all this is even if you do read it you probably won’t believe me because of all the shit I put you through. I’ve done so much to you and I realized why you broke. I can’t stop getting teary eyed over thinking about you not in my life. I don’t want to argue anymore. I want to go back to what we had before. We were best friends. We could tell each other anything in the world without having either of us look down upon the other. We could just lay in bed and cuddle and laugh and kiss and just be happy. I want that with you again. I just want you to be mine again. I know you told me for me to show that I love you and this probably shows nothing but I’m trying. I just want us to be US again. It’s harder then it seems. I can’t do anything to persuade your mind into loving me again. Also, I know me going to a school two hours away might seem like im just moving and abandoning you but I’m not. I’m doing this for our future, well I was. I don’t want you to feel that way because I have before. You know i would never just abandon you. Your mine. You know everything about me. More then ALOT of people do. I tell you everything. Even my….suicide attempt that not many people know about but now they will. You just know who I am inside and out and I know who you are inside and out also. We were made for each other. This isn’t any type of puppy love bullshit. This is for real. No matter what, I will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS love you.

                  We Are Not Meaningless…. :/

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